412th Post & My Last

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Feeling Lousy

A colleague bought cakes for everyone at the work place. I went for tea break & was given 1 slice of it. It has cream on top & Jus said she don't want to eat her share as the cream is fattening. As I was about to tuck into mine, another colleague said, "You better scrape away the cream."

I know exactly what she meant. You're so fat you shouldn't be eating the cream. SH tried to salvage the situation by saying, "Eat lah, worry later." But the hurt has already been inflicted. Of course she didn't mean to hurt my feelings. But those naturally slim people will never understand. They can eat as much as they want & not put on weight. But we fat people have to watch our diet very strictly & even then, losing weight is so difficult. & becoz they've been slim all their life, they don't know how sensitive we are about our weight.

I had totally zero mood. Took half day, reached home at 1+ pm. Cooked lunch & slept after watching Charmed. Yeah, it's a pig's life style. I know. Maybe becoz I slept after eating, the food was undigested & I didn't feel hungry. So I brought Ton & cycled down to the nearest petrol kiosk to pump up the tires. By the time I got home, my legs felt like jelly. Under inflated tires & heavy Ton can do that to you.

I still don't feel like eating so I just drank water. Maybe this is the way to go. Skip dinner all together & go cycling instead. I could go scout around the neighbourhood for a place where I can off leash the dogs to play. Sounds good.

Incentives

I haven't started leh... it's simply too difficult to fight the temptation of food. I came up with a new trick & I want to rope Jeff in on it. I want to have several small goals & a reward when I meet them. I was contemplating whether to include punishment for gaining weight. Sort of like dog training. Do something wrong, you choke. Do something right, you praise. It works better than just using praises alone. I haven't decided.

I listed a few things I want that isn't food related. They are:

1. Twilight DVD Code 1
2. A classy bag for myself with a budget of $300
3. Wardrobe revamp (This will have to be at the last goal.)
4. Permanent hair removal for: Underarms & Legs (No more ingrown hair! Yeah! But this is very ex, especially for the legs.)

So I was thinking of something along the lines of, 3 kg weight loss I get the DVD. 5 kg weight loss I get the bag. 8 kg lost I get permanent hair removal for my underarms & so on. I asked Jeff to write a list of things that he wants too. He plays a very very important role if I want to succeed. Becoz, I'm always tempted by him. So... I will buy for him the things he want. This will spur him to work with me, not against me.

What then, will be uncomfortable enough for me to be a deterrent? Maybe along the food line. Like eat a huge serving of bitter gourd for dinner everyday for a week or eat a whole carrot raw for dinner everyday for a week. (Too much & I'll turn orange. Major turn off! Besides, I really hate carrots.)

So how much do I need to lose? I will stop at 50 kg. I don't dare to step on the weighing scale. I know I definitely put on weight. I'm too paiseh to write here too. :(

P/S: Lyn, wanna try this method too?

How To Motivate Yourself To Lose Weight

Eeeks! I put on weight! I found a good motivator. A Primary Sch friend added me on Facebook just 2 days ago. This was a guy I used to have a crush on. Looking through his friends list, I found several other friends from Primary & Secondary Sch. All the girls are either the same (those thin ones) or lost a great deal of weight (the bigger sized ones). I'm the only 1 who's fatter than before. In Secondary, my heaviest was 58 kg. I can't believe that 3 yrs ago I was 74 kg! Gosh!

I'll be so paiseh if I run into them ever again. Everyone became gorgeous & I became uglier. It's gotta end. Let me feast 1 more time tomorrow coz I'll be away on the durian tour. It begins on Sun. Follow the detox cum partial fast strictly. No more excuses. Find time to exercise even if it's low impact like cycling or walking Puggy. I'm so dead! I wanna be 50 kg!

Ooh, btw, I went to see O&G liao. I had to do the dreaded PAP smear, took some blood for hormones & rubella. Will be doing gynae scan on arrival on my next appointment. I wanna know what's wrong with me. The Dr said most likely PCO. She told me to drop to at least 55 kg (my normal weight for my height).

Ok, I better keep looking at my old friends' photos to motivate myself. 50 kg ok?

MIL's House: Day 6

Gosh, I'm exhausted. I'm constantly feeling sleepy. I sleep about the same number of hours as I do at home. So why such a huge difference? When I take bus, my head banging against the bus's window merely stirs me to move my head & go right back to sleep when it should jolt me wide awake.

Anyway, my in law's are going to be back tomorrow. I gotta finish all the work. But right now, I'm so tired that the only thing I wanna do is sleep. So I guess I'll do everything tomorrow.

Our new ride, a Violet Pearl Avante Sports Edition has arrived. We collected the car on Tues & went straight to L&E to show off. :P Haha. Not really lah. Actually, we were shopping in NTUC & saw Caramel Corn tidbits that E was looking for at Daiso on Mon. So we got a few packets & Jeff suggested bringing it over to their place. We circled around L&E's estate to let them have a feel of the car.

Sale of the van has no news yet. It worries me coz it's almost end of the month already. Alright... I'm so shagged right now that nothing worries me. I'll complain again after a good night's rest.

MIL's House: Day 2

Woke up at 6 am to prepare to go to work. As I was pouring soya milk at the kitchen counter, something caught my eye. Inside every toaster oven, there's a metal baking tray right? What I saw was the baking tray lined with aluminum foil. Used, oily & crusted aluminum foil.

Another thing was my MIL must have washed clothes on Sat morning before they flew off & put the remaining dirty clothes in the washing machine. When I came over yesterday (Sun) evening, the clothes were still on the bamboo pole up there in the kitchen & the dirty clothes still in the washing machine, unwashed. Moreover, they cooked! The clothes hanging up there sure stinks lor.

They also drank some sweet stuff & must have left the cups lying around for a long time. The cups were full of ants & there were dried pink patches at the bottom of the cups. I get so "pek chek" when I see the ants crawling all over the place. I can't imagine the expression on my MIL's face when she comes back had I not come over.

Anyway, I managed to claim 2 hours today. I'm also granted tomorrow's leave. Yeah!!! I already cleaned the floor. So just waiting for Jeff to come home to shower so I can start the washing machine. Going to slice apples to dehydrate later. Then probably will do some ironing. Will end the day by playing FB & reading the novels I just borrowed from the library.

MIL's House: Day 1

Met up with L&E at our request yesterday. A guy wanted to view our van. Short story, he didn't buy it. Anyway, we went to Aston & had the Extra Cut that E has been raving about. 2 words. Cheap & good! I don't think I'll ever go Jack's place again!

We had a gorging day. My cheap bones woke me up at 7.55 am this morning. Why can't I ever sleep past 8 am? I cooked the red bean tang yuan I bought yesterday at Sembawang Shopping Centre. I ate & watched Charmed. Yes, again! Brought my parents to Crystal Jade at Jurong Point for a belated Mother's Day celebration. Walked around a bit at NTUC before finally heading home. Packed my stuff & walked over with Jeff.

My BIL & his wife were watching VCDs that they've rented & eating dinner that they've cooked. We took a cab down to Mt E where Jeff's grandpa is warded. He told all 4 of us to have children soon. Yup, he mentions it everytime he sees us. Came back & they decided that since we came over, they're going to head home.

Now it's just me & Jeff. Dang! I didn't bring my usual home clothes coz I thought they'll be around. I've put my name up for Tuesday leave. Hope I can get it. Jeff doesn't have school on that day & if I'm granted, I'll bring Ton over tomorrow after work. I also brought my dehydrator with me since BPP is just opposite. I want to try squid! There're also many apples in the fridge so I better clear it too.

It'll be convenient for me to go to work & come back. Yeah! I'll have air con but we'll see how since Jeff always wakes up with bad sneezing after sleeping in air con room. There's nobody but us so we can leave the room door open & the air can circulate.

I'll leave the chores for tomorrow. I'm so tired right now. I'll just wash the cups in the sink 1st & keep some of the pots & pans they used. It's overcrowding the dish drying rack. Ok, better go do it now so I can go sleep!