Feeling Lousy

A colleague bought cakes for everyone at the work place. I went for tea break & was given 1 slice of it. It has cream on top & Jus said she don't want to eat her share as the cream is fattening. As I was about to tuck into mine, another colleague said, "You better scrape away the cream."

I know exactly what she meant. You're so fat you shouldn't be eating the cream. SH tried to salvage the situation by saying, "Eat lah, worry later." But the hurt has already been inflicted. Of course she didn't mean to hurt my feelings. But those naturally slim people will never understand. They can eat as much as they want & not put on weight. But we fat people have to watch our diet very strictly & even then, losing weight is so difficult. & becoz they've been slim all their life, they don't know how sensitive we are about our weight.

I had totally zero mood. Took half day, reached home at 1+ pm. Cooked lunch & slept after watching Charmed. Yeah, it's a pig's life style. I know. Maybe becoz I slept after eating, the food was undigested & I didn't feel hungry. So I brought Ton & cycled down to the nearest petrol kiosk to pump up the tires. By the time I got home, my legs felt like jelly. Under inflated tires & heavy Ton can do that to you.

I still don't feel like eating so I just drank water. Maybe this is the way to go. Skip dinner all together & go cycling instead. I could go scout around the neighbourhood for a place where I can off leash the dogs to play. Sounds good.