I'm So So So Tired

Apart from being tired, I feel so stressed. It's the money issue again. How do I raise 25k? It's almost enough to fully pay off our van. Even if I go work on weekends, there may not be any assignments for me. Although if I do work on both Sat & Sun, it'll help bring in extra $1k+ per month, provided I get assignments on both days for 4 weeks. Do I have to work myself to death? Heaven, how long more are you going to torture me? When can I finally break free?

I could be so comfortable. Our salary combined is more than enough to lead a "having excess" life provided that we don't spend too much. Why is it that I'm paying for my lunch in coins then? Why is it that I'm worrying so much my hair's all turned white? Why are you against me? Is it too much to ask for, wanting a solution out?