What The Hell???

Monday night, my supervisor called me at the clinic. "Sihui, remember to sign your leave form for last Wednesday. You put under the remarks, preparation for wedding. If the HR people ask you, tell them that you don't have enough time to prepare becoz of the night shifts." I already expected that she would ask me to claim leave for that day. But the reason she wanted me to put is totally inaccurate! Now she's making me the bad person. Fine, I said I'll sign the form.

Tuesday morning when I passed over to her, I reminded her that I'm left with half day leave (becoz she forced me to clear them all during the summer holiday). She then told me that she would claim PH for me instead. She still owes me Vesak Day you see.

Today I'm on morning shift. She went around telling everyone that she had to give me a day off last Wednesday becoz I needed the time for my wedding preparation. I heard it with my own ears. I can't f*cking believe it!!! She made it sounded like she did me a huge favour.

Then she told me this, "I told *** (my SRN colleague) that if the management gets us a new nurse, you & *** may not be able to take leave during the summer holidays next year as you wanted as the new nurse may be very assertive & insists that she gets certain days off."

Who is she trying to kid? Everyone in the clinic knows she's trying to get rid of me. Even I know it. So why keep putting up false pretences & pretend that I'll still be around next June? My SRN colleague called up & I told her all of these. She then told me that my supervisor didn't say a word about the summer holiday leave at all. So what will she gain by lying to me? It doesn't matter whether the new nurse (if any) wants certain days off. She bl**dy well know I'm very flexible. I think she's just worried that SHE won't be able to take leave in June as & when she wants.

Anyway, I won't be around to take anymore of this shit. Now comes the problem of handing in the letter. She's already pretending that I'll still be around next year. She's always telling us not to drop her a bomb without warning. The reasons why I didn't discuss with her about my leaving & chose to hand her the letter straight is becoz:

1. SHE told me she won't be confirming me.
2. SHE told me to think about whether I want to stay in this job or not.
3. SHE told my colleague that she's worried that I'll drag & drag, refusing to leave.

I believe that if I hand her the bomb, she'll go around blaming me for not giving her warning. Either way, I'm going to find a way to tell either the HR or 1 of the doctors, the truth about my supervisor. Last week when I was still very angry with her for the whole fiasco, I read this Buddhist book on 'How To Overcome Your Difficulties' & felt slightly better. Now I think I need to go back & re-read the book again. Grrr...