My Decision

50% of the people I spoke to says to stay & leave only after receiving the bonus. The other 50% says to quit immediately & stop putting up with such sh*t & that it's pay back time coz she'll have to re-organise the roster & find nurses to come in to work on extremely short notice. I'm troubled & of course, I don't know what to do.

My heart says to quit immediately. Jon said that he's surprised that I can even put up with such treatment for so long.There're 3 more weeks to end of school. The other 3 weeks will be school holidays but I'll work for 2 weeks in the school holidays should I decide to leave end of Dec as the vacation spills over to the 1st week of Jan. During school holidays, I work 4 hours a day & it's mostly admin work yet I get the full pay. 3 weeks isn't long, yet it can be a lifetime if such things were to happen again. My main fear is, will I be so 'lucky' in this 3 more weeks of school?

My head says to stay on till I get the bonus. God knows that my cash's all strapped in the coming wedding. If I can hang in there, it'll be a great help to bring home another 4k (plus bonus). That will also help me as I look for another job. Although Jeff keeps saying that he has an income, I feel selfish to put us in a state of poverty again just so that I can have gratification from leaving this sh*tty place & not having to face/deal with my sh*tty supervisor again. I'm much more inclined to stay in view of my financial state.

Last night, I finally received an sms from my supervisor, asking me to come for night shift today. When I asked her about the meeting, she said she needed to discuss with her immediate supervisor about it. She didn't let on that the truth was already out. In the same way, I didn't let on that I knew that the truth was out. Had my colleague not informed me on that 2 days ago, I would have been plagued by worries even till now. Is she trying to play mind games with me? Indirectly controlling me by making me worry?

When I arrived at work just now at 7 pm, she was still around. My SRN colleague then announced to me in front of her that the heads of the school already knew about the system being faulty. She just stood there & said nothing. I didn't expect her to apologise & I wasn't disappointed. She left at 7.15 pm.

My colleague then told me that the nurse who saw a boy & a girl in the same bed but didn't do anything about it was another agency nurse. Once again, my name is cleared. Now for a bit of gossip. She told me that my supervisor had a quarrel with her husband (though she didn't say what the quarrel was about) on Monday. She had been staying at the work place till 7+ pm for the past few days (she works till 4.30 pm) before going back home to sleep straight away. It was her cold war against her husband, ignoring him till, presumably by me, he admits that he was wrong, which may not be the case at all. She's very clever coz men hates being ignored & sooner or later, will cave in to apologise even if they weren't at fault in the 1st place.

My colleague is sooooo good at talking. She's telling me that for this 1 month, I should do my best & prove to everyone that I'm not a lousy employee. I guess her aim is to make me feel that if I were to leave immediately, I'll be the loser becoz I lost the war with my supervisor, forsaking the bonus in the process. She made me feel as if I made the right decision. From now on, it's pray & pray that these 3 weeks will be uneventful.