Don't you get tired of everything some time? But mostly I get tired of people. I guess people also get tired of me. There's always something to dislike about each & every person. It's a never ending all consuming thing to do if you keep looking at their faults. I guess for every person I dislike, there're many more who hate my guts or the way I do things or the way I am. So as much as I can tolerate, I try not to dislike anyone. If that cycle has to be broken, it has to start with me. Right? Coz you can't change what others think, only what you yourself feel.

It's especially true for colleagues. You have to face them everyday. It wouldn't help to secretly bear grudges against them, yet having to smile & talk nicely to them even though your heart doesn't feel that way. But we do it all the time. So I guess we're all hypocrites in our little ways. There're few who can speak their mind & be applauded for it. More likely they make increasing number of enemies. So to make life easier for ourselves, we resort to hypocrisy. It's perfectly alright. It becomes not alright when you put how you feel in your heart into words that you intend to spread. That's backstabbing & for those who've experienced it, you know you never want to go through it again. What can we do? I can shut my mouth but I can't shut other's.

Now, I have a boss whom I'm sure a lot of people share. She takes all the credits, but never the blame. The moment something goes wrong, it's always someone else's fault. For example, ME! She frequently takes MC & leave me to tend the fort alone. So when something goes wrong, guess who she blames? No prizes for getting it right though. I've only been here for 2 months & her tail is already showing! I tried my very best not to dislike her coz I know how hard it is to work with someone you don't like. But she just keeps pushing it. So what can I do? Just separate myself from the work. It's work & go home. It's only for the money. It just degrades my job into a materialistic persue. Sigh...