Long Slow Slide by Jewel

I just bought her latest album, Goodbye Alice In Wonderland. She's always been my favourite singer. Some extracts of this song that describe how I feel right now.

The lights are bright in the circus,
The geeks & the freaks all light cigarettes,
And laugh at your misery,
While the weight of the curtain closing crushes your heart.
The inertia of loneliness tears your flesh apart...

Chorus:
It's a long slow slide,
It's a long slow slide,
It's a long slow slide... down.

And outside the window,
The circus crackles & lurches with rings of smoke,
You laugh half-heartedly at the punchline,
Not realizing they've made you the joke.

Inside my heart a war is raging,
In regions still untamed.
The worst fear I can imagine,
Is for the mystery to be named.

Chorus:
It's a long slow slide,
It's a long slow slide,
It's a long slow slide... down...