Feeling Down

It's been almost a week. My spirits are still down. I don't really feel like doing anything. Lately I just work, go home & sleep till it's time to go to work again. I hardly feel like eating at all. Whatever enthusiasm I had for work has been slowly ebbed away with the recent turn of events. Everyday I just drag myself to work, always wondering when the next axe will fall.

Sometimes I take cab to work & I'll direct the driver all the way to the clinic. Otherwise it's a 15 mins walk from the bus stop as the clinic is right at the end of the school compound. As with all international schools, there's security guards due to the anti-american thingy. So to enter the school, we have to produce our staff pass. So anyway, I never have to produce my card as the guards recognize me.

But today I was stopped by this indian guard who opened the taxi door so I took out my card to show him. & he said, "Next time you take it out by yourself. Don't wait for me to tell you!" Even the taxi driver was like, "Wah, what kind of attitude is that?". I just smiled. What else can I say? Bet the guard doesn't treat the caucasians this way. This isn't the 1st time I met this guard. It's been so many times surely he can remember me since other guards who saw me lesser times can?

After that, my mood just spiralled downwards. There's a huge cloud of gloom all around. I just want to cry...