I Can't Do Anything Right

It's been a very bad day. I had a very bad start. Early morning I was called into a room by my supervisor to have a 'talk' with her. Basically, she's very unhappy about my performance & she won't be confirming me for another 3 months. Although she didn't say it out loud, but I felt strongly that if I still don't meet her standards by the end of the 3 months, I'm gonna have to leave. Just mins ago, she called & scolded me about something I did wrong.

It just seems that I can't do anything right. I feel so lousy. Looks like this isn't a job that I can stay on for long. When I 1st started & things went wrong, I told myself that I'll just keep working until they fire me. Well, looks like it won't be that far away.

I reached home at about 8.30 am, let Ton Ton out of his playpen & I sat down on the floor & cried. Ton Ton just scratched me in the face. My only comfort is that when I wasn't looking, he went to the tray in the playpen all by himself to poo & pee.

I guess I'm just incompetent. According to my supervisor, the newcomer is doing far better than I am, contributing ideas to improve the work flow whereas me, who's been here for 3 months just keeps making mistakes & getting complains from everybody. Is there a God? If you're there, can you please tell me what am I here for? Am I meant to be unsuccessful in whatever I do?