Unease

Well, here I am again sitting in front of the com. I've said about how much I don't like being on call. So, once in every few weeks (averages at every 2 months), I get a week without any calls. So it's something really great and to be looked forward to. The last time I didn't have any calls, someone took MC and they requested me to work. Not very willing lah, but you know I'm someone who can't say no. I have no calls this week. Kinda excited and looking forward coz I finally have both weekends off. (I've been doing weekend calls for the past 3 weeks.)

You can guess what happened next lah. Yesterday I was on afternoon. So I went out after work to play LAN game in Bukit Timah Plaza. When my bf, his friends and I step out, my phone was ringing and I already had 7 missed calls. As you can expect, it was very noisy inside and that was probably why I didn't hear the phone till I left the place. Turned out that someone took MC and my sister wanted me to do on call today. She already tried other people and nobody was willing/can to do it.

This colleague is from my discipline and she's been on leave for 2 weeks. Today is supposed to be her 1st day back at work. I can understand becoz nobody will want to come back to work on a weekend. That's why no matter how unwilling, if I have weekend call, I'll drag myself to work coz some unlucky person will have to sacrifice his/her weekend. Not to say the trouble I'll put my sister through into finding someone else.

I told her that I've been working for the past few weekends. She told me then that it's alright. She'll try someone else. Then she told me not to worry. After that I felt bad. She didn't push the issue. But I know how difficult it is to find someone to work on a weekend especially when you've got everything planned. I feel really guilty. Even now as I sit at home, I can't really enjoy my off day. Coz I've caused someone to lose their weekend by refusing to work. I'm going out soon but I doubt I can leave the guilt behind.