I Cried Today
I wasn't feeling very well today and went to see a Dr. The Dr took some blood tests and ordered an ultrasound (U/S) for me as well as a MC. I didn't think that it would be nice to drop that MC bomb mins before I was due at work. (I went to work 1 hour eariler so I can see the Dr and go to work after that.) So I went in and let Sister E know about it. Here was how our conversation went.
"I'm not feeling well today and the Dr gave me a MC. But I feel that I can work. If I really feel unwell, do you think I can go off early?" That was me.
"How many MCs have you already taken? What do you think? Do you think you should work or take MC?" She gave me a look that it was as if it was my fault to be unwell.
For the record, I've taken 1 day MC for this year for the same problem. That was why the Dr suggested further tests to see if there is something wrong with me.
Then I said, "I also have an U/S on Wed."
Immediately, she asked me. "What duty are you on on Wed."
"Morning." I said.
"Do you know how much it cost to have an ultrasound done? It's very expensive. I'll see if I can get any Dr in the theatre to do it for you." So off she went telling the 1st and 2nd Dr she saw about my condition and why I needed the U/S when there was like 10 over people around.
The 2nd Dr she approached said that the X-ray dept has the equipment suitable for me and that the U/S machine in my work place is not very good for diagnostic viewing. Although the reason she gave was that it is expensive, I knew it wasn't so. She just didn't want to give me the time off or day off to have my U/S done.
As I was preparing for the cases for tomorrow, I couldn't help it. The tears kept coming. Good thing I had my mask on so it wasn't very obvious. I really wish I can quit. This is a hellish place. Too bad I'm under a bond. Another 1 yr 2 mths to go. Very soon my job will have me killed.
posted by Rookie Jo at 11:16 PM
2 Comments:
Eh? Woek killing u eh? U just have to bear with it and carry on working. That's the worst thing about being bonded. Humans behave in such a way that once they think they have an edge over others, they'll start using it to their advantage. Your sister knows that u have no choice but to complete your bond, so she using that to her advantage lor, what can u do? Lun lor.
This is society lor...But this is not the whole thing about society lah. There's bad things, there's also good things. So whenever u feel down or feel like crying...just remember this..."no matter how tough the day is, the day will still end." It's never a fantastic job to be a nurse, and these are always made worse by lousy and bossy sisters and matrons. Just treat it as a grilling part of your life journey and learn from it. And remember not to become like them when u reach a position of power. Power have a way of twisting pple's minds, attitudes and behaviours...
I dunno if What I'd said will be of much help to you. U better take good care of yourself. You'd nevered been in great health...Let me know the result of the U/S kae? Take care...
jo.i understand how u feel.i was being F**k by sisters and senior staffs and even Drs before.right in front of the nursing counter.i cried too. Luckily that time i hav a long-term patient,he console me.i guess u know who is he,he is a regular nuh urology patient.
He told me,in working life its like that,sister always scold staffs just to show pple that she has the power and authority. Everywhere is the same,u just got to be firm. tahan lor. or treat it as she is singing,after that just let it out by shouting,dancing,eating or tok to friends.. as wat darepheus says, no matter how tough ur day is, it will still end. ..
jo, lets tahan 1 yr 2 mths more together ba..It will eventually end ...............
take care..and take care ur health too.
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