Oh Shit...
Fallen off the wagon! Been gorging so much lately that I don't dare to step on the weighing scale. It's my BIL's wedding banquet this Sun. I don't have a dress. Well, I do, but I don't think I can fit in nicely at the moment.
So, operation crash dieting begins tomorrow. I think there's a lot of inner/unseen competition going on here. I feel like me & my BIL's wife have this thing to see who will emerge the more superior 1. Maybe I'm just being too xiao ren. I feel so inferior whenever I see her. She's slim, pretty, comes from a rich family. Everything that I'm not. She lives in this landed property & her family has 3 cars. She chats with my MIL very well & you know me. I'm so quiet that I'm awkward in social situations. I feel so fat & ugly next to her.
Why do I say it's a 2 way thing? She has told my MIL that once we serve them tea, I have to call her "Ah Soh" aka "Da Sao" each time I see her. We're all youngsters right? What we do nowadays is "Hello" or "Hi" right? Isn't this a way of showing her seniority to me (coz my BIL is the elder brother)? We were having steamboat tonight & Jeff & I went down in the morning to help her shop & prepare the ingredients. You should see how black her face turned when my MIL praised me in front of every1 for helping to prepare the food. So I really don't think it's just my part. My MIL also told me something I think to help me. She told me to have a baby quick. Becoz it'll be the 1st grandchild of the Loh family. I feel so stressed man. When a family is this traditional, a girl won't count. It has to be a boy.
Jeff doesn't quite understand. He says the "competition" is senseless coz I'm the most beautiful in his eyes. He also says my MIL prefers me. But you know, you really shouldn't keep your guard down. Even if I don't persue, who's to say she wouldn't?
I feel lousy when I'm around her. So you can see how I dread their wedding day. So no matter what the motivation is, losing weight is my ultimate goal. I'll probably go for a full face threading the day before. Kinda wasted coz I just did my eyebrow threading 2 weeks ago & it's still looking good. I'll probably go for a hair cut & dye too. Gonna keep my nails long for a manicure. Then... I know I won't win her in terms of looks or figure. So... I got a secret weapon. I'll probably wear a low cut v neck (if I can fit in) with lots of cookies so I'll have boobs like Piggy's. I know, I really feel like a bitch. But I just can't help it.
So, operation crash dieting begins tomorrow. I think there's a lot of inner/unseen competition going on here. I feel like me & my BIL's wife have this thing to see who will emerge the more superior 1. Maybe I'm just being too xiao ren. I feel so inferior whenever I see her. She's slim, pretty, comes from a rich family. Everything that I'm not. She lives in this landed property & her family has 3 cars. She chats with my MIL very well & you know me. I'm so quiet that I'm awkward in social situations. I feel so fat & ugly next to her.
Why do I say it's a 2 way thing? She has told my MIL that once we serve them tea, I have to call her "Ah Soh" aka "Da Sao" each time I see her. We're all youngsters right? What we do nowadays is "Hello" or "Hi" right? Isn't this a way of showing her seniority to me (coz my BIL is the elder brother)? We were having steamboat tonight & Jeff & I went down in the morning to help her shop & prepare the ingredients. You should see how black her face turned when my MIL praised me in front of every1 for helping to prepare the food. So I really don't think it's just my part. My MIL also told me something I think to help me. She told me to have a baby quick. Becoz it'll be the 1st grandchild of the Loh family. I feel so stressed man. When a family is this traditional, a girl won't count. It has to be a boy.
Jeff doesn't quite understand. He says the "competition" is senseless coz I'm the most beautiful in his eyes. He also says my MIL prefers me. But you know, you really shouldn't keep your guard down. Even if I don't persue, who's to say she wouldn't?
I feel lousy when I'm around her. So you can see how I dread their wedding day. So no matter what the motivation is, losing weight is my ultimate goal. I'll probably go for a full face threading the day before. Kinda wasted coz I just did my eyebrow threading 2 weeks ago & it's still looking good. I'll probably go for a hair cut & dye too. Gonna keep my nails long for a manicure. Then... I know I won't win her in terms of looks or figure. So... I got a secret weapon. I'll probably wear a low cut v neck (if I can fit in) with lots of cookies so I'll have boobs like Piggy's. I know, I really feel like a bitch. But I just can't help it.
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