Late Night Ramblings

Composed at 2+ am, 11th April on Jeff's HP.

Most, if not all of us wants to feel desirable. I feel that it is the basis of our self esteem. How did I come to that conclusion? I was epilating my legs & I wondered why the hell am I putting myself through such pain? In my mind, I imagine a guy asking me the same question.

My answer to him was, "It's becoz of you wretched males! You want girls to be slim, pretty & sexy. We have to work hard to play that part just so that we're desirable to you. All these hard work of dieting, carefully selecting clothes that makes us look slimmer, nail arts, shaving, waxing, or in my case, epilating & etc are just for that sole purpose."

It makes us feel good to be desired & appreciated by the opposite sex regardless of whether we're attached or not. I have no point to bring across. This is just 1 of the random things that ran through my mind. The funny thing is, I know for sure that Jeff doesn't care about my appearance. He tells me that often enough. He never fails to reassure me that I look good on days I feel fat & that nothing in the wardrobe looks good on me. But I guess like many, many others out there, it's never enough to have the approval of just 1 person. It's a nature that we've cultivated living in this superficial world. I can't say for all but I guess true people who've devoted themselves to their religion (like true monks/nuns) have been able to see "beauty" for what it is (temporary & fleeting) & given it up.

Then again, beauty is very subjective.You may be ugle to the rest of the world, But to that 1 special person, you're the most beautiful in the entire world. Still, we desire to charm the rest of the world, isn't it? Sigh... I think too much. It's all the epilating act's fault!