It Just Gets Worse...

The overwhelming sense of foreboding stayed with me throughout the whole of Tuesday. After my night shift, I headed over to Jeff's place. I reached home at 12+ pm & proceeded to shower. I left my house at 12.45 pm to meet Jon & Sam in Orchard. I finally found a decent looking dress that I can fit in & a pair of gorgeous heels that set me back some $140.

The largest size in the whole of Isetan is L. There is no way I can fit into a L when I have problem with XL even. I found 1 that fit but was very loose over the tummy area, making me look pregnant. I kept holding on to it, not wanting to give up hope, yet fearful that I wouldn't be able to find something nicer. Just as we were about to leave, this purple tube caught my eye. Surprisingly, it was in XL size. I admired my image in the mirror of the fitting room for a long time. It hugs in the right places. I love it!

We also went through the whole shoe section in Taka. Again, just as we were about to give up, I spotted the perfect shoes to wear with my gown. The sales person told me that it was the latest design & stock for it had just came in the day before. At $79.90, it was expensive, considering my current situation. Besides, I never ever buy shoes before my previous pair falls apart.

We ate, sat outside Taka near the fountain & chit chatted. We parted at 7.30 pm. I brought the dread with me to bed & woke up feeling worse. I didn't sleep well at all. I didn't want to go to work at all. I kept praying that nothing will happen at work on my journey there.

She finally came clean & told me in the face that she wouldn't be signing my confirmation & asked me to think about whether this job is suitable for me. She said it in a nice way of course as my colleague who's on better terms with her was still around. After my colleague left, she picked on me for every single little thing. Bill endorsement for claiment is supposed to be her job in the 1st place. She made me endorse the bills for her but had said in the past to hand her the bills that were problematic.

She turned on me & demanded why did I not endorse that particular bill & insisted that I call the clinic to find out what drugs was prescribed to the staff. Anyway, this bill is still pending as the clinic refused to disclose & asked me to contact the staff instead. This staff is on midnight shift today & when I called at 11.30 pm, he was out on patrol. I left my number for him to call back but till now he had not. So I guess I'll try again in the early morning before he leaves at 8 am.

Then she said that I should have checked the amount of memo pads left during my night shift. Why is it always me? Am I the only 1 working here? Is it my sole responsibility to check? I came back to work on Monday for night shift. That night alone she left me work to do & I didn't even complete till the wee hours. She's totally biased against me & hence this treatment. She doesn't treat my colleague this way I tell you. Even my colleague confessed it to me.

The most annoying of all... I put in my request for 8th Dec, Friday & 9th Dec, Sat off due to my ROM on 9th Dec. I also require Wed to be night shift as both Jeff & I need to go down to the ROM office to collect our documents. Guess what she did? She put me on Tuesday night, Wed off night which is also an off, followed by Friday night. This means that on the 9th Dec, Sat, my ROM day, I'm off night duty! So I have to rush home at 7.30 am after I've passed over to the morning nurse, showered, get changed & Jeff has to pick me up to his house for the tea ceremony. Then it's back to my house for tea ceremony on my side & rush down to the bridal studio by 12.15 pm for make up, picking up of dress & collecting the bouquet.

She forced me to clear all my leave before Dec, saying that she'll grant marriage leave during my ROM. But now she's saying that I have to submit the marriage cert to get the marriage leave. That means, I can only claim it AFTER my solemnization. If she had not forced me to clear all my leave, at least I could take 1 day leave on Friday for preparation. But she was the 1 who said I can take marriage leave for my ROM & hence I agreed to clear my leave!

This is my presumption. But she did mention something about taking leave in Dec to go for a holiday. I think she's afraid that I'll take leave in Dec, rendering her unable to take leave as well. Someone has to go in for 4 hours a day even during the holidays. My colleague is taking leave for the whole of Dec & she had informed my supervisor even before accepting the job. So if all 3 of us were taking leave, nobody will be working. I think that's the reason why she forced me to clear my leave. For her own selfish motives!

I wouldn't call it hatred. But I seriously have a lot & I mean tons of bad feelings towards her. She make me feel sick! I hate to see her face & I don't even want to come in contact with her for even 5 mins. Jeff says hand in the resignation letter now & demanded that I be released from service by the 6th Dec. (I need to give 1 month notice & today's the 2nd.) I know that if I do this, I'll get HELL for the rest of the 4 weeks that I'm here. She knows I probably need the money & wouldn't leave till after my ROM. Probably that's why she's doing all these. This is seriously getting out of hand & I hate her unscrupulous ways. But what can I do?