Over The Weekend

Internet has been down at my workplace over the weekend, hence no new posts as I usually update my blog during my night shift.

I didn't step out of the house on Mid-Autumn Festival after I got home. I didn't even cut the mooncake with Ton Ton coz I really really wanted to share the moment with Jeff as well. By 11 pm, I had dozed off in bed with Ton Ton beside me. I was waiting for Jeff to get home from his afternoon shift but he didn't get back till 12.30 am. Even then, he told me he came down with bouts of vomitting & diarrhea. The very next day, he was diagnosed with gastric flu, given IM Buscopan at the GP's clinic & had 2 days MC. The lanterns & candles has been sitting outside in the living room since then.

I'm having mixed feelings about my choice of 'career' if you can even call it that. I'm definitely not cut out for it. How do you learn & grow to be assertive when half the time you don't even know if what you're doing is right? Perhaps what I need is confidence. But to gain confidence, 1st I have to gain knowledge. To be frank, I've forgotten 80% of what I've been taught in school. To be even more frank, I hate dealing with people. I prefer to work in the background & to go un-noticed. A job whereby I don't have to meet or deal with people. Impossible isn't it? I'm just an inch short of becoming a hermit!