Anxious +++

Starting my new job tomorrow. I'm super anxious, super worried. It's the same thing everytime I start a new job in a new environment. The source of my anxiety is my super poor interpersonal relationship skills.

You've met so many people. There're bound to be some people who makes you feel uncomfortable just being in a conversation with them. I'm 1 of those such people. Somehow, I always run out of things to say & uncomfortable silence almost certainly will descend. I'll never be the 1 people seek out when they're in trouble or sad. Despite being around Jeff for so many years (coming 5 yrs next July), I haven't been able to learn a single thing from him.

Becoz of that, I'm always very scared to be in a group. I'm always the odd 1 out. I can't joke becoz (I think it's the way I deliver it) people will fall silent & take it seriously. That is why I'm doom to fail in whatever I do. I'm so so so scared...